....and so flow the tears

So the other day Scott and I are in bed just talking and his mother and sister's annual "Birthday Spa trip" comes up. This is a little trip they take into the city each year for dinner, show and spa...sounds great right?? They both hate it. So after laughing at them for a minute I burst into tears......."OH WHAT I WOULDN"T GIVE TO HAVE A CHANCE TO DO THAT WITH MY MOTHER!!" I wail to a startled Scott. I then sob for the next 20 minutes. When I see women, both mothers and daughters, not cherishing the opportunities they have I want to shake them.

Then next big mistake of the day comes when I get up and decide to watch "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2." For those of you who don't know the story there is a girl who's mother kills herself when the daughter is about 15. So the daughter finds her long lost maternal grandmother after discovering her dad had been hiding letters for years......this of course brings up all sorts of feelings the girl had pushed away for years ie.... her mom abandoning her, not loving her, missing her etc. So for the 2nd time in only a few hours I'm sobbing.

So after a long, painfully irritating work week I decide to come home, have a LARGE glass of wine, listen to Christmas music and gaze at my very bright and busy Christmas tree while thinking of Mom. Finally after being wound tight as a spring all week I was able to relax.....

Merry Christmas!!